I bought a dog 🐶

I bought a dog 🐶

Hey guys!

It’s a new day and a new post.

So today I thought I would tell you about my journey to buying my first dog.

I’ve had dogs in the past, but this one a bought for myself to live with me and my boyfriend.

So here’s the story.

When I was a child, my great grand owned a greyhound called twiggy. She was fawn in colour and by far the sweetest, most chilled out dog I’ve ever known.

My mums father used to have greyhounds before he passed, and my mum would always go on about how beautiful they were. Now for a long time, I disagreed because who would want a dog that looks like a praying mantis?

That was what I thought until one day at university we were doing a companion animal practical where we were learning about the signs of an unhealthy cat or dog. It just so happened that we were practicing on greyhounds. And that was it. I fell in love.

The big beautiful souled creatures just wanted love an affection. They wanted to be your best friend and follow you everywhere.

For the past few years I’ve moved basically every year. Now we are living more permanently and I decided it was time to get my dream dog……but it was postponed for various reasons. That was when I started to get quite depressed and anxious about all my other life stuff as well, so it was a shit time really.

I recently had a week of leave and I decided it was time. It was the perfect timing. I told myself it would give me a reason to get up early. It would help me by caring for someone else who needed it. It would stop me from being selfish.

And so, I got bella. A beautiful black greyhound. The joy she has brought me recently is hard to compare to. I’ve been outside more in the last two weeks than I have in the last 8 months. She has given me motivation to become a healthier and happier person again.

Until next time…

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Well here we go!!

Well here we go!!

Okay guys,

It’s time,

I’m changing myself for the better and I’m taking you guys along with me.

So I’ve mentioned before that I gained weight quite quickly at the beginning of the year and it hasn’t budged….well, since then I have been put on antidepressants for my anxiety. For years I thought that if I worked hard enough I would be able to fix myself, why use medication…..

I’ve been on them for two months and I’m incredibly surprised at how good I’ve been feeling mentally lately. I was told that I would possibly gain more weight, have lowered libido, and become numb to my emotions. Thankfully, none of these side effects have occurred.

So to me that’s telling me that I was doing a lot worse than I thought. The fact that some tablets made me feel better than I have in so long made me realise that it was a good thing that i started to take them.

I’m usually a very stubborn person and I like to think I can do everything by my self. This isn’t the case. Although I can be very self motivated, in this situation I did need the help. Some people may be thinking “why dont you just talk to a psychologist and ditch the drugs?”, well I’m also doing that. And I don’t think I’d be a very good patient if I didn’t have that extra help.

I used to think I’d be ashamed of myself if I got help with my mental illness. My mind made me this way so why can’t my mind fix me? I now realise that it’s more than okay to have a little help, and just that little bit of help has motivated me to get serious about my physical health.

I’ve always enjoyed being active. I’ve done many many sports and dancing, I love swimming and I love the outdoors. Since I’ve been largely inactive this past 8 months due to my promotion, I often feel frumpy and oddly exhausted every day, and I truly believe that it’s because I have been so inactive after years and years of doing every activity under the sun.

So now to the point.

I’m officially starting my journey to physical and mental health. I’ve been saying that to my boyfriend for months, but something about documenting it and sharing it with people helps. I guess now people know, I’ll have to keep it up!

So time to get real and show what were working with. To give you an idea, I’m 5’2 and a very hourglass figure. I’ve never been called skinny and I’ve been fine with that! My waist is quite small and is usually a couple sizes smaller than my bust and bum. Okay….here are my starting photos!!!

I’m as big as I’ve ever been here, plus Ive been snacking, so the way I see it.. I can only get smaller!!

A toast to a healthier mind, body and soul!!

Until next time…

How to get out of my slumps…

How to get out of my slumps…

So, sometimes I get into a slump, we all do. So here are some of the ways that help me to cheer up. Not everything works for everyone, so this isn’t a fail safe guide. When you find something that works for you, stick with it.

  1. I get OUT OF BED
    1. If I’m feeling low, the best thing I can do for myself is to get up, and move around.
  2. I make breakfast or a cup of tea or coffee
    1. even just making a tea encourages me to do other important thngs
  3. I clean the house
    1. A weird one I know, but i know that when my house is untidy, I feel worse. And the best thing after i’m done, is that i feel accomplished. obviously some days this is definitely not on the list.
  4. I pamper myself
    1. whether it be a shower, shaving my legs, a face mask or putting on a face of full glam, taking care of myself makes me feel good.
  5. I come up with blog post ideas
    1. some of my favourite posts have come about when I’m feeling down. In my head I think “what advice would I give to someone in my shoes right now”
  6. I tell my partner that I love him, or i give someone else a compliment
    1. I think about what would cheer me up, and I do or say that to someone else. I don’t like it when the people i love are feeling low, so i do what I can to prevent that.
  7. do one of my hobbies
    1. I’m a bit of a nerdy person at heart. I love to read or play Sims…
  8. admittedly, sometimes I shop
    1. now, i don’t like to do this one all the time for obvious reasons, But very occasionally I will splurge on that one special thing I’ve been eyeing off for a long time. Like the white netball shoes in one of my previous posts.
  9. I talk to my friends
    1. i don’t talk to them to tell them all my problems, i talk to them because giving them someone to talk to about things makes me happy. Helping people makes me happy.
  10. I organise
    1. and organised life is a less cluttered life and a less cluttered mind. I’m generally a neat person, but sometimes my anxiety shows in my mess. being organised makes my mind feel organised-the next step is to keep it that way 😉

 

Like I said, i expect people to say “pfft!, Shopping!?, what a silly ignorant girl” but this is what works for me. I don’t earn a lot of money and so of course I’ll do things that don’t cost anything. But I hope maybe, someone can relate, or even take away some ideas

until next time…

Positive talk day 9

Positive talk day 9

So after over a week of positive posting, I’m realising I’m finding it difficult to keep finding something positive to say. It shouldn’t actually be that hard. I don’t have to write whole inspiring posts to be positive talk, I should simply be making sure I have something positive to say about myself.

This challenge was more for myself than any readers, to see if I could actually do it, and to inspire people to be positive about themselves also.

So today, my positive thought is, I am of value, I am useful and I am worth it. And L’Oréal products are great…….😪 sad attempt at a joke there. But L’Oréal have got it right. I am worth it! We are all worth it 😉

Positive talk day 8

Positive talk day 8

Sometimes I feel like I’ve run out of nice things to say to, or about myself. However, today was not a bad day. Today I accomplished some of what I wanted to. Now, some people may think this isn’t something positive, but the fact that I was awake, with no headache, not running off iced coffee, is a very good thing.

So frequently I feel exhausted at work, and I even consider quitting my job. Today I felt good.

Last night I finally went and saw my doctor and explained what had been going on. We made a plan, and even the smallest step in the right direction, has made me have one of the best days I’ve had in a very long time 👌🏻

Day 6 positive talk

Day 6 positive talk

So often I feel as though I’m not really worth second glance, or a second thought. I’m exceptionally average at everything I do.

I can do anything well, but I’m never the best. I’m okay looking, but I’m not a stunner, I can cook some things, but others I cannot master.

I’m just average…

but, as we are being positive here… I will say… I am strong. I am independent. I am worth something. I am motivated. I am unique and I am me. I am extraordinary, because I am the only one of me!

Day 3 positive talk

Day 3 positive talk

As I sit here home from work today, anxious that I will get in trouble for taking a sick day and not doing my job, I’m finding it difficult to think of something positive.

However, I set myself a challenge and I will see it through.

Although there are people out there that don’t understand and don’t know what to do when you tell them you’re struggling. You will come across some people that you just cannot live without, and who have made you feel worth something.

Today I am recognising the amazing people in my life, and how lucky I am to have them. No matter how you feel, your friends and family care. I have some of the best people in my life, and I am grateful.